[ Not 'next week' - I should know better than to promise such things...sigh ]
I am presuming you have read PART 1. If you have not, it is an important segue from that to this. Take a moment to read the November 15th post first so that this one will make sense (maybe even read it AGAIN since I did not deliver 'next week'...lol)
ALL OF THAT TO SAY...I have given some pause and process, reflection if you will to my original 'all is well' takeaway to how I was a 'trigger' to my friend. Furthermore, I stand by The Four Agreements, in that, I am not taking any of this on a personal level.
I very much respect her feelings; this is true for her. When it involves contact with me, it brings up the painful past. Okie dokie.
HOWEVER, it did leave me to wonder. I HAD been a good friend to her through a very troubling chapter. Wouldn't you want to hold onto said friend? Recognize having survived and pushed through to the other side of the season that wiped you out?
Apparently not.
And...well...ok.
This leads me to those 'pick up where ya left off' friends in our lives.
That IS different. This situation just...hits different. It's one thing to stay out of touch for while.
A few examples - my Canadian Friend and I easily pick up where we left off. No odd wierdness in between chats, other than my own inflicting guilt that I don't call enough.
OR how about my friend running her seasonal business. We'll pick back up when the season wraps up. Both of these friendships have walked. through. IT. Divorce, having babies, launching kiddos, loss and grief...you name it.
Yet we're still standing.
When I have contact with these friends, I'm reminded of the closeness we share. I feel a warmth of acceptance, love and non-judgement. I only want to deepen these bonds.
All of this to say...uhm, I don't know what to say. This is unchartered territory.
As Always...
I remain, Humbled, Buoyed and Blessed
As always, take 10 minutes to
Just Be
HUGS y'all
The Texas Ginger
Bringing World Peace, One Hug At A Time
